Terrified

Am about to go in for my second sleep study.  I miss my honey already.    And last night I had the absolute most horrid dreams… yes more than one of losing Rose.  I woke and I swear it was the most real thing… as real as my heart was beating as real as I was breathing as real as my mom being gone.  I did not call her today… I was terrified to know.  God plz make this dream go from me… it is terrifying me.  Maybe I need to stop coming to see her.  I am too close.  I get so attached to every therapist but never this fear.  Not like this. 
I have to get into my sleep thing.  I will see Rose at group after I see surgeon about my shoulder.  Grrrr.

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